“He waited for a key moment”: when porn turns to rape in front of the camera

Today, she testifies to the difficulties in enforcing consent, in an X industry shaken by court cases.

The recent surveys which target figures in the field, such as the Jacquie et Michel site or the producer “Pascal OP”, and which have just resulted in the publication of the first ethical and deontological charters in this sector, have awakened in this 32-year-old woman painful memories.

Between 2009 and 2012, she was confronted with the explosion of so-called “amateur” porn, now king on the Internet. At 20, she discovers a world “where we tell actresses that you have to accept facial (ejaculations), anal or double penetrations, otherwise you won’t do three months”, and in which she will be raped in three times.

First by a pioneer director of “gonzo” and his films without a script. In early 2010, she had to shoot a scene with an actor under her direction. On the spot, uneasiness: the forty-something films naked, then invites himself into the action “without asking anything”.

“He waited for a key moment,” says Mathilde. “It enters me when I have the actor’s penis in my mouth. It’s harder to protest and plays the card: + we’re among friends, we’re having fun +”.

Facing the camera, the young novice does not dare to oppose. “There is a relationship of authority: he is a director, I am an actress that he must direct”, she breathes. “At the time, I said to myself: + he must have warned me and I didn’t hit +.”

A few weeks later, the same director forces her to shoot, while she is “totally drunk and on cocaine”. Evening outing, the actress explains “not being able to work”. Him “does not care”, aligns several rails of “coke” and orders: “with that, you will hold your scene”.

“I don’t know what he gave me, I have no memory of this scene”, explains Mathilde. After this episode, she stopped working with him.

“Really no”

A year later, an actor persuades her to shoot with him for a Breton director, known for his false “castings”. From the start, the man tries, camera on, to impose anal penetration on her, a practice that she has always excluded.

Despite his refusal, the fifty-year-old invites the actor to sodomize her in the middle of the stage. “Panicking”, Mathilde “stops playing the ingenuous girl” and says “really no”. “Dissatisfied”, the director insists and ends up imposing another practice on him: “a vaginal fist (penetration with a fist)”.

The same evening, “I hid under the duvet, I didn’t want to sleep, I was afraid that I would be raped in my sleep”, says Mathilde, then staying with this director, who will spend the rest of the shooting to humiliate him.

Almost ten years later, the entrepreneur is still struggling against the “mental repercussions” of this violence and to fully accept herself as a victim. The thirty-something evokes “forced, imposed acts”. Before I let go: “every time it’s clearly rape, but I still have a hard time admitting it.”

She has so far not dared to file a complaint, for “fear of not being listened to”. When she mentioned these abuses on her Instagram account, she was confronted with reactions “of the type: + raping a porn actress, it’s impossible +”.

“What is crazy is that we always put the blame on the girl, on the assumption that she knows where she is going, and not on the methods of the producers and directors,” he regrets. she, deploring “the impossibility of having an agent to defend his interests, because French law considers that as pimping.”

Thursday, the Jacquie et Michel site, targeted by an investigation for rape and pimping, set up an ethics charter. The producers it broadcasts must now commit to informing actresses that they can refuse any sexual practice and to respect their choice in this matter.

The Dorcel company, which dominates the French sector, has announced that it is working on the “first code of ethics for French pornographic productions”.

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